Friends…I mean ‘real’ friends… have recently been supportive of my leanings to close or change this site. “Start another blog, if you‘re tired of howdarei“, they say. After all, it is a pretty narrow focused niche that I have carved out for myself here. And as I said…I am leaning. Listing to one side. Toward widening my commentary to include things other than tribal shenanigans. I mean, after all, I am a schooled and experienced writer…competent or not. I can place one word after another. And a few without the need to hear constant condemnation of cultish jewish dominance, might read me. A few. Maybe that should be enough now. Since I have written a gazillion words here and published a book toward that effort. Maybe. Or I could be lost in the mix of a million other ‘bloggers’ that are convinced they have found some righteous path and feel fulfilled in pointing it out to you by their use of clever prose. Again…maybe.
Then there are my readers. The ones that come here regularly for…hell, I dunno why. Perhaps they think I have some answers. They might think that I agree with them on issues concerning the jewish among us. Support. A laugh or two. You name it. They come. Thousands. That amazes me in a way.
Those regular visitors here will have noticed that my essays are coming fewer and further between lately. I would tell you that I have been busy, but that would be a lie. I would tell you that I have run out of things to say, but that too would be a prevarication.
I could tell you that I am frustrated with this site and how it is being grouped with other sites and that would be closer to the truth.
As you know(especially if you have such a site yourself), the general reading public is not wary of letting you know how they feel about your work. Good, bad or in-between…they will tell you and they will reveal themselves in so doing. I have published and debated the more stable of those that oppose my efforts. I have had online scuffles with purveyors of other sites that disagree with my opinions. I have enjoyed the camaraderie of like-minded individuals that applaud what I write, telling me that I have put into words something they have always felt but never voiced. Those are the precious few. It is vanity on my part to acknowledge their kudos…but vanity can be a driving force.
But they are not the ‘thousands‘. The majority pick and choose. Hear what they want.
I have known ‘rednecks’. Every place on earth has them. It is just we amerikans that have named them that. The bigoted. The narrow-minded. The fearful. The stupid. They are to be found everywhere. Too many find their way here, and to the sites that I am grouped with. “The antisemitic sites”. I know. I chose this path. I chose it to define rational ‘antisemitism’. To delineate between above mentioned idiots and intelligent well-meaning examination of over-represented jewish power in the West. Tough thing to do. The tribe fights me. The idiots fight me. I didn’t allow for two battles. My message is getting lost in the fray. Few wanted to hear it in the first place…fewer remain now. I dodge the ‘patriots’ and the ‘white-ists’ with this post and that. But they won‘t have it any other way. If I see the domination of yiddish control, I must want to save the union…or decrease immigration…or fight for second ammendment rights…or remind everyone of the teachings of this messiah or that one…or preserve a country that never was. Frankly, I don’t give a flying fuck about any of those things. But don’t tell anyone.
It seems there is no place for my political platform….no matter how common-sense based I think it is. Go figure. Good thing I never ran for any office.
But I consider the source when I assess most of my readers. I too was raised in a all-white suburb of a country run by white old men that fought just(sic) wars for a subset of greedier white(jewish)men. This had an effect on me to be sure. It seems a different effect though. I take little pleasure in remembering those dream-like times. It seems most out here in anti-judaic land were mesmerized by them. Now they are incensed that they cannot return. Hi ho.
I‘m through trying to point these things out to them.
I have had my say about that trickery. You figure it out for yourselves. Or don’t.
So ‘howdarei’ will continue. But with a new direction. I might even change my masthead. Rather than be entirely ‘anti-jewish’, it will be more anti-everything. I will group the ‘white-ists’, the ‘patriots’, and the religious in a kind of “me versus them” narrative, which I have learned through this blog is the battle I should be fighting at this point.
I tire of trying to make the stupid think for themselves. Can’t be done. For the rest…hang on. This could be a pretty wild ride.