It took me a minute to gather my thoughts in answer to her query. But I began with “I don’t give a flying fuck about minorities or their rights. I also don’t care about immigration, the state of the nation in which we live, any political left-right squabbles or saving whales. For the most part, I dislike people. They are stupid and easily swayed. Few if any think for themselves, and they reap the consequences. Then they whine about it. No sympathy. I hate all religion. For what little comfort it supplies the dull-witted, the horrific influence of it as a whole is hardly worth it”.
I went on to explain that my view of the world comes from my understanding of a few things. One thing I do not understand however is death. I don’t know what it is. I don’t know what lies in the time period after we cease to exist, if anything. So I don’t know if it is something we should fear, welcome or merely accept. Perhaps there is a reward of sorts after our short lives…I dunno. Perhaps the shorter our tenure here, the better. Hope springs eternal…but as I said, I don’t know.
I do know three things however. I know what pain is. I know what fear is. I know what loss is. None of these things are good.
You may be saying to yourself, “Wow…this guy is brilliant to know all these things” with your tongue planted firmly in your cheek. But when I use the word “know”, I mean it as first-hand experience. As many of you reading this do. These are the things in life to be avoided. They can’t be for the most part. Simply because they are part of life…part of our human experience and make-up. Part of uncontrollable nature. However, when any of these three horrors is caused by one human upon another, deliberately…that is where I object with all my being.
So if that makes me a lefty…a bleeding heart…well, so be it. But a tempered one. I have a huge social conscience then. One which directs me not to keep silent when I witness man’s inhumanity to man. And we all witness this daily. But over the years, although quite a few groups have infringed on the copyright, it was filed many centuries ago by the group that I rage on about here daily.
Some see this as an illness in me. An eccentricity standing alone in my otherwise rather normal personality. Some people are stupid and to my way of thinking, most are willingly ignorant. But.
So what has this hatred of a philosophy…talmudic tribalism…gotten me over the years. Very little if anything positive. A handle to hold on to perhaps…to steady me on this subway-ride…so at the next turn I don’t go tumbling down the aisle. We all need these hand-grips. Perhaps in my anti-religion this is my religion. It has all the earmarks. It explains some of life’s anomalies. It is a “faith”, because it entails prognosticating the behaviour of mankind, in foretelling that if you place your bets on his weakness before decadence…you will always win. It mimics most religions in acknowledging the presence of this decadent Satan-entity which must be resisted at every turn.
So it’s kind of a here-and-now type of religion to which I belong. One that doesn’t deal in the unseen, unheard or spiritual. But one that deals with things as we perceive them. The behaviour all around us. Uncloaked and naked in all its un-spiritual realness.
No obfuscating. No defense lawyers. It is what it is. Hallelujah! Can I get an “Amen”…can I get a witness?
There are many downsides to this new religion of mine. Like the Christians of old you will be sacrificed to stupid hungry beasts, just for the entertainment of those in the expensive seats. You will lose friends and family regard. You will be more alone than you have ever been.
But the upside is a BRAND NEW shiny never-before-used conscience. AND as an added bonus….if you call now…you can rest assured that this faith is for this board-game only. When you leave this earth, you can leave baggage-free. You are under no obligation to take this belief any further than death. Although it is improbable that I could be sued by the recently deceased, my attorneys tell me that I cannot place myself or the tenets of my religion in legal jeopardy by guaranteeing that this philosophy will serve beyond the grave.
But seriously…up there I mentioned that when I witness the big three being imposed upon others by fellow humans, is when I start preaching from my illusory pulpit. And that at this moment in our short human history, there is a group of people following the dictates of a “religion” of hate, that endorses just such violation of the human spirit. In name and deed. And no one…I mean NO one deserves to be frightened, maimed, killed or endure grief by the hand of another, simply to satisfy the aggressor’s greed or feelings of supremacy.
So to my friend that asks me to explain myself in terms of right-versus-left…other than this answer…I cannot. It is all I know.
Wow. I wrote a whole essay without using the word “jew”. Oops. I blew it.